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EP: it's really only
happy new year. here are three songs. two are new.
d204.10: ghosts
the tenth roll of d204, a project where i let dice tell me which of my songs to record, & a vlog abt interfacing with a past self’s uncomfortable sort of vulnerability + a demo of the song from 2015.
d204.09: the freezing
the ninth roll of d204, a project where i let dice tell me which of my songs to record, a vlog digging into the deviantart archives to figure out when this song was written, & talking thru some other recordings of this song.
d204.08: under you
the eighth roll of d204, a project where i let dice tell me which of my songs to record, & a vlog abt the animated project the song was originally written for, how it briefly became known outside of my usual audience thru a mob psycho 100 comic, & how very very very much i want to expand the EP into a full musical abt a ghost & human falling in love.
d204.06 : god help me
the sixth roll of d204, a project where i let dice tell me which of my songs to record, a vlog abt anxiety, & a bit of talk abt the original release of this song.
d204.07 : nature nurture neuroses
the seventh roll of d204, a project where i let dice tell me which of my songs to record & a vlog abt revisiting the artistic viciousness of a teenager who is Going Thru It & healing from difficult parents so you don’t become them.
d204.05: one last time
the fifth roll of d204, a project where i let dice tell me which of my songs to record, & a vlog abt abt sobriety, isolation, & the weirdness of writing + performing songs abt mental health crises from inside of them.
wonder
talking abt my song “wonder”, inspired by finding an old demo of it on a recovered hard drive.
d204.04: memorial
the fourth roll of d204, a project where i let dice tell me which of my songs to record, & a vlog about the experience of going to my estranged mother’s funeral.
d204.03: a poet & an alcoholic in times of war
the third roll of d204, a project where i let dice tell me which of my songs to record, a vlog with some initial thoughts about the song i rolled, & a version of this particular song i posted on youtube as a teenager.
d204.02: hands in mouths
the second roll of d204, a project where i let dice tell me which of my songs to record.
d204.01: september 1st, early
the first roll of d204, a project where i let dice tell me which of my songs to record. this one is “september 1st, early”, a song off of the album i wrote about my estranged mother dying. this blog is also about that.
my ex's exes
a thirteen year anniversary tribute to a song i wrote called “my ex’s exes” & a link to the version of it i posted in 2010.
extinction [live from the basement]
a live version of “extinction”, a break-up song about craving exaggerated external circumstances that are completely out of your control to bypass the vulnerability of having wants or needs & how i guess maybe it might theoretically be possible to let your knowledge of what your priorities would be at the end of the world dictate how you live in it now
earned
a song i wrote for a pride event about learning what love can be.
borderless festival 2021: live from the basement
my pre-recorded live set for the 2021 borderless festival livestream, featuring five original songs, including the premiere of a brand new one.
correspondance
a song about the possibility of a crush being reciprocated, written in like january/february 2020 & recorded in may 2020.
healing
full lyrics of the song i contributed to the second “other music ptbo” compilation.
it's not your fault you ruined my life
a simple raw scream of a song.
list #4
the inherent terror of loving something that will die
trade
oh, oh, where's my self-control?
soft touch
one of the songs from an EP abt a ghost who is in love with the woman whose house she is haunting.
like any other
the first ever recording of “like any other” & a silly blooper from the recording process.